The story

The story unfolds but not in the way it ought to.

nothing is right and for a second I wonder if I am dreaming

but I feel too alive to be dreaming

I know how the story should go and how it should end

but it isn't doing what I want it to

it's going completely off on its own.

do I follow this unfamiliar story and hope the end is good

or do I stick with the story I know and am comfortable with?

This I cannot answer now because the unknown scares me

I wish I could cheat and skip to the end and find out what happens

for that would make my story choice much easier

but I am not allowed to do that.

maybe the story is unfolding exactly the way it is supposed to

that one word....

The word seems to squeeze the oxygen out of the room

mentioning it brings an array of hate and loathing but

also a sense of safety and warmth. how can this be?

two conflicting emotions should never be brought on by one thing.

it confuses me and although I need to figure it out I dont want to

because figuring it out means reality and that is not something I

am ready for. So for now I will let the oxygen slowly escape until

I can find the person to make that word the one thing I want it

to be: happiness.