Tender Hearts

This world is full of tender hearts

those who understand the life

thats laid before each one of us

they bring us hope they lift us up

they help us bear that heavy load

they teach us how to love and

most of all they're there to catch

you when you fall.

I just need to take the time

to thank all of those who are my

tender hearts. You have done so much for me

and without you I would be lost!

My Place

Lost in a sea of distant light all

I can do is lay still and wait for the

night to come and take me away.

To take me away to the place,

the place where doves soar and

waterfalls trickle. my happy

place made entirely from my dreams

Drift Wood

to be truly happy you have to know yourself.

without that knowledge you are a piece

of drift wood, looking for someplace to

call your own but never quite finding it.

Find yourself and you find happiness.

so simple yet so hard to do. dont be

the drift wood, be a pillar.

so I really have no freaking idea why I wrote this.

But I just needed to get what I felt out. and in a way

this is sorta what I am feeling. Its not my best.

but its late and its all I could come up with. enjoy

Truth

Life is too short to hurt this bad. I often wonder where the end is.

where is the day when I can say that was hard but I did it. To live

in a world of sorrow and partake is to loose the courage to say no;

to loose the justification of right. but to live in a world of sorrow

and deny is truth. Truth will always let you taste it as long as

you are put your trust in it and let it guide you on your way ©Jessica E Meyers

This Dream

Confusion settles all around me. I blink to eliminate the stress nothing seems real, nothing seems possible. My heart cannot bare to break again, it cannot bare to loose again. Chances like this come around once upon a dream. A dream that I am too scared to face, too scared to breath in. I keep switching back and forth between a reality that isn’t mine to change. maybe I should just breath. take a deep breath close my eyes and fall. ©Jessica E Meyers

Do You?

Do you ever have those days where things just go so well you cant sleep even tho your extremely tired?
Do you ever lay there in bed just thinking about life and how short it actually is?
Do you ever think about heaven and what it must be like to be there?
Do you ever picture yourself with some guy that you dont think likes you back?
Do you ever find out a guy likes you and then thats all you can think about?
Do you ever ask yourself why you even open your mouth because everything that come out is stupid?
Do you ever say to yourself, why me?
Do you ever have a freakin awesome dream that you just cant stop thinking about?
Do you ever get so hyper that all you can do is dance it out?
Do you ever wonder what might have been?
Do you ever wonder what will be?
Do you ever keep up your walls because you dont want to get hurt?
Do you ever name your children before your even dating?
Do you ever do something without thinking about it?
Do you ever go out on a limb hoping that it will turn out the way you plan?
Do you ever ask yourself how you got so lucky?
Do you ever just sit and think without doing anything for hours?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?
Do you ever hang out with amazing friends?
Do you ever think that just maybe life is so amazing, and that everyone in your life is there for a reason,and that where you are is where you're supposed to be?!

I do....... ©Jessica E Meyers2009

This one isn't a poem. just my deepest thoughts. I wrote this beginning of November

Spaces

I didn't realize i could miss anyone this much, or that it could hurt this much.
Just to feel your hands in mine, your lips in my hair, your voice in my head
to know that you are there and you aren't going to dissapear. My heart melts
when you whisper in my ear and tell me you love me, I get butterflies when you
touch me. Please tell me this isn't all a dream, that when I awake you will
be here with me. I need your touch, and your warmth. Baby please come back
I am not complete without you, because you have a part of me. So hold it
close, and dont forget. Don't forget those nights we had, don't forget those
simple words, they mean the world to me, and so do you. ©Jessica E Meyers2009

Sorry this is way out of order from the other ones.

this was right after I left from school.

Hold On

I feel myself slipping back into the hole of darkness.
nothing is sure, i feel the darkness closing around me.
i cannot breath and for a second i welcome my new found
sense of hurt. life is too short to live like this, too short to
have regrets and too short to live in the darkness. all
i ever wanted was to be free of it, to live my days in peace
but this hole has a grip on me. a grip so fierce at times i feel
to just give up. i want to tell you, to let you see my soul and
my deepest thoughts, what will you say? will you stay or will
you leave me alone? just me and the darkness, slowly sinking ©Jessica E Meyers2010

Early February I want to say.. Not sure tho

The Warehouse

am i the only one that feels this?
i am standing in the middle of
a huge empty warehouse screaming
out for someone to hear me but no one does
i start to wonder if i am even screaming or if
it is just all in my head. i try to bring down the
hurt, the pain, but it flows easily now. please.
i just want you to hear me. ©Jessica E Meyers2010

Not sure when I wrote this. Its been a hard last three months

The River

I’m drowning in a river of orange and blue, and all I can see is your face but I can't reach it. All I can hear is your voice but I can't find it. I drift farther and farther into the darkness and right before I feel my mind go blank something tugs on my heart. Am I dead? Is this heaven? I can almost feel you next to me, but it isn't real. How did I get in this river? How did I get away from you? Don’t leave me, just come back! I can hear your voice, calling my name it’s so close yet so far....... ©Jessica E Meyers2010

When life just didn't feel so good

The Hole

I thought when you said okay you meant it. I thought when you said I feel you meant it. I’m stuck in this mud bath sinking slowly to the ground. Trying to find something to hold onto but nothing is around me. I am utterly alone. Gasping for air only makes it worse. That word. It stings like the aftermath of salt water being tossed into your eyes. I thought I would be safe with it. It was supposed to be my safe haven, but alas it has ripped a hole inside of me. I want to be free of it so the pain will go away. But I crave it. I yearn for it to stay and be a part of me. Sinking, sinking slowly sinking. ©Jessica E Meyers2010

This one was before the break up. but still sad.

Air

You don’t feel anything over your body sucking the air away from you, yet you feel suffocated. Why does it have to end like this? You are in love, that isn’t something that will change, but love needs as much air as a hot air balloon needs. It needs to be swaddled and cared for; it can’t just be left out to rot. You thought this would last longer than it has. But when you are being suffocated like a child that doesn’t know better and sticks their head inside a grocery bag just cause it looks fun you have to get away. Run as far away as you possibly can. Don’t look back it will only make it harder, just keep going until you find that one that can replant your heart in clean unbroken soil. Don’t let yourself be suffocated. You deserve better than that. ©Jessica E Meyers2009

I wrote this one after my break up.

Happiness

Happiness is not an invitation to be giddy. Happiness is not a rejection for the bitter. Happiness is simply that, being utterly and motionlessly in love. Don’t fall too fast. Don’t go to slow. Be content. Live in peace. Partake of the moment. Happiness is a song. Sing from the depths of your soul. Find that connection and bring it with you. Don’t be afraid. Happiness wants to fill you, and to love you, and to share with you its inner most secrets. Don’t fall too fast. Don’t go to slow. ©Jessica E Meyers2009

This was one of the better times in my life:)

Unnamed

Today is my day. The day when everything else stands still. I walk the empty corridor wondering and pondering. Could this be possible? I try to tell myself that everything will work out. This is the balancing act. I always wondered if it would feel like this, if I would feel so lost and confused, yet so happy and excited. Do I want to know what people think? I am my own person, and I make my own choices. That word. It's always there lingering on the horizon. Never quite within reach. I try, I reach. I yell for it, but it's not sure if it wants to come to me. And although I yearn for it to come, I'm not sure if I want it. My life is hanging in the balance, and today is my day! ©Jessica E Meyers 2009

This is the first one I wrote. Back in Novemeber:)

My New Blog!

Hi friends:) I have decided to make a blog of my writings!

Im pretty excited about it! This is where I am going

to post new songs, poems, or just thoughts.

Im not going to moan and groan on this blog.

This is for my inner most thoughts. So

I guess if you wanted to get to know

me you could read these things!

I will post a couple to get the blog started!