anticipation

anticipation is a waisted cause.

to sit around and wait is like

watching a movie in slow

motion. anticipation is a lost

cause. the act of waiting for

something to come that doesn't

want to be. anticipation is hurt.

why do I anticipate? because

all good things come from

waiting and hoping. anticipation

is waiting for something wonderful

to happen.

Suffocation

I cannot feel, I cannot breathe.

suffocation. the utter disappointment

of a slow unavoidable death. the air

I have left escapes in staggered

agonized breathes. my mind screams

to live but my body tells me otherwise.

suffocation. the act of a heart laying

helpless in the street. straining to

live but unable to love. suffocation.

the flood

a light streams from the rafters

signaling the start of a new day.

the newness cannot register for

I am covered in the darkness of

the earlier day. thoughts flood

my body and seem to overthrow

my mind. telling me I've lost to

the day before me. I must break

through this haze, to see the love.