Random Thoughts

My heart is pounding my head just hurts

Im tired and grumpy and bored

I want to leave and run away but

shirking from responsibilities would be insane

Classes drag on they never end

I want to go out and play in the park even get a tan

What am I doing here? feeling like wasting my time.

Do I want to come back do I want to drop out

I need an education to get a career but is school really me?

The thought of marriage makes me want to hid under a rock

Once I was told you get hurt more in marriage than any other time.

If this is the case who wants to put themselves through that pain?

My friends are the best but I feel like they don't get me

I try to have them understand but it just wont happen.

I hate doing homework but it is ALWAYS there.

I would rather sleep all day then get up and do stuff

Im ready to be done with this place move back home

I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs

but it probably wouldn't calm my sorrows.

Stop feeling sorry for myself... thats what I say every day

But its harder to do then people would think...

So for now I will keep my pain to myself

it will get better, it just has to or else where would I be?

No Remembrance.

everything seems harder when you're broken.

walking seems harder because you're afraid

every new step is going to crack you some more.

every new breath is going to hurt you more

and every new thought is going to push you

farther into the deep unknown you dont want to see.

the days seems longer and the nights seem shorter.

looking around you you see the bright yellow sun

beckoning you to join in its brilliance but you cant

because every bit of brightness you had left inside of

you was taken away and you cant remember how to get it back.

everything seems harder when you're broken and can't remember

how to fix yourself.