The Ocean

The ocean is a beautiful place at first glance
it looks so inviting and enticing and fun
getting on that boat seems like the best decision possible
you never imagined it could take away your trust so quickly
a feeling of despair settles in as you realize you're all alone
drowning seems very logical at this point
it's only when you open your eyes that you see He's been holding you all along
the ocean can be a beautiful place but only when you rely on him

My Reality

This dream feels so unreal it seems to torture me
I cringe at the thought placed before me:
change everything that makes me who I am
or live with the fact I may never be good enough.
Haunted by the pain I try and flee
I just want to wake up! I have to wake up
realization floods my mind as I see this is my reality
my bleak, devastating, torturous reality.

Is It?

It's impossible to be in love. but is it impossible to be in love with an idea?
It's improbable that it will be. but is it improbable to hope?
It's impractical to believe in fate but is it impractical to wish for it?
I don't know... why don't you tell me

A Moment of Peace

my heart beats as if it has moments
my brain thinks as if there is nothing left
my body feels like it's being trampled on
I don't want to feel let alone think
Darkness suffocates and I realize I am alone
Alone in the darkness no words to be heard
Desperate to see light I reach for the air
hoping something or someone will help me
but they just watch as I slip further into the darkness
my heart stops beating, my brain stops thinking, and my body no longer feels
peace;at last there is peace

Thoughts Escape

Thoughts escape without the slightest hint to who will hear them
words scream without knowing whose listening
Actions parade without caring if anyone is watching
The thoughts speak fear, love, and hope
The words tell of happiness, anger, and desire
The actions show misunderstanding, bravery, and distrust
But if no one is willing to pay attention do the thoughts really escape?
do the words really scream? do the actions really parade?
Only you can decide

The moment when

You know the moment when life seems pointless
the moment when it seems like nothing really matters anymore
the time when your best friend doesn't even seem to know you
the second that you look at the pillow and wonder if you could?
You sleep all day and cry all night but relief doesn't understand you
nor do you understand it because you're all alone in this world
Stepping outside is like instant suffocation and who wants that?
Your mind taunts you telling you you're worthless and for a moment
you believe your mind After all why wouldn't you? It's yours.
It wouldn't lie to you. It loves you. Until the day you realize
it's tricking you you can never truly be happy.
Don't cry because it wont be okay it never has been and never will be
You know the moment when life seems pointless?

My Friend

Christ heals all pains. He comforts all sorrows
His love is abundant if we just open the door.
Open your heart to His love and it will fill you.
He died for you, he suffered for you, He is your friend.
Let the light of Christ into your life.
Christ heals all pains, He comforts all sorrows.